Plus Size Pregnancy

I wasn't conscious of my weight until i was in 6th grade. What followed was years of low self esteem, yo-yo diets, and shape wear. Long before I become pregnant, I worried on how my extra weight would affect my ability to get pregnant, and my pregnancy. To be honest, I was completely terrified in a very, vain way that I wouldn't look pregnant.

During my first appointment it was brought up that I was overweight, but carrying twins, they expected me to gain more than the average 15-20 pounds. During the duration of my pregnancy I lost several pounds, and only gained 20 pounds. With how quickly my belly grew, I was in maternity pants by 12 weeks. Fortunately I didn't have to worry about not looking pregnant, my belly seemed to pop almost immediately.

As the weeks went on, my belly stretched, it stretched to the point I didn't think it could get any larger; but it did. I remember sitting in the doctor's office and having a women ask me if I was delivering that day. When I told her I was only 28 weeks, her eyes got big. I knew I looked massive, but I had to keep reminding myself that I was growing two little babies. Pregnancy can bring on a whole array of insecurities. My face swelled up, and stretchmarks started popping up all over my stomach. Sadly you can continue to have similar insecurities long after your baby arrives. Pro tip:  don't comment on a pregnant women's size, whether you think they are too big or too small. Each pregnancy will be different for every women; if you feel the need to comment, just let the soon-to-be mama know that she looks great.

I am still plus sized, and I still have insecurities, but I am amazed at what my body was able to accomplish. I was able to carry two little human beings for 34 weeks. I was also able to provide them with breast milk for 2 months. Looking back now, I am incredibly grateful for the healthy pregnancy I was able to have.